Hormones vs Morals

I have been feeling a little emotionally lonely. And then I have been really horny lately. There is a girl I'm flirting with, but I don't really like her. She is cool, but just doesn't have that something. I'm over the previous girl. She was actually really inconsiderate. I was just blinded by something. There is another girl. She is cool and has a little something about her. But I'm not sure if she likes me like that. Maybe that is the "something," the challenge or whatever. Do I fulfill my hormonal desire or maintain my moral code? I feel like it is wrong to use a person for a physical need, and maybe it is too mean to be so explicit. I'm already leading her on. She wants me to visit her this weekend, but I'm not going. Too far, it is a nine hour travel at best. Well, my problem is extremely minor.

I'm very lucky to only have this to complain about. I feel very fortunate to be able to be here (Mozambique) and get a different perspective of life here. I have all this time to think, reflect, and read. I remember dad always saying Gramma Bobbie used to say, "You think you have problems? look around." I'm not sure where all this is going. I keep coming across this principle of love in the books I'm reading. Not just being in love, but having love for all people, life, or even abstract things. We have to follow our passion to be happy [1]. Change, growth, and developing more as a person is part of life, finding ourselves and THE WAY is no easy task. One thing I don't want is regrets in life.

[1]11 Mar 2023 Reflection- following one's passion is a terrible cliche. Depending on how that idea is interpreted, I think it is a potentially terrible idea. If follow your passion means be healthy and stable enough to enjoy hobbies and free time, then sure. If follow your passions means getting a graduate degree in an over-saturated field or struggling for decades to be an artist, then no!